Yesterday, Mrs. Earp drove this formerly little kid to Alvernia University for the weekend’s student orientation. They set up Erik’s dorm and got everything settled, and classes begin on Monday. Erik, for his part, is excited about his schedule, because he has no classes on Fridays.
I am more than certain he will do well at Alvernia, as Erik has always earned good grades.
Yesterday was a mixed bag for me, because I was scheduled to work, and since we are so short on manpower, I couldn’t take the day off. I explained to Erik why I couldn’t be with him on his first day, and he seemed to understand, but the fact of the matter is this job keeps me away from my family.
When I walked into work on Friday morning, Salam Hayek said, “You should have gone and taken the day off.” That’s great in theory, but with two detectives on vacation, one out sick, and Diego in court, we had three people in the building.
It took me quite a while to realize how terrible this job has become, and how often I was never there for my kids’ events. I don’t know if they resent me for that, but I’m sure they were occasionally upset with me and this job.
I do my best to get off for the larger events, but there are times I cannot make it happen. I missed most of Julia’s music recitals, missed more than a few of Kyle and Erik’s lacrosse games, and family get-togethers. Hell, I haven’t been to a Thanksgiving in years.
I hope Erik doesn’t resent me for not being there yesterday, and I wish I was a better parent.